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Dinah Maria Mulock - Looking Death In The faceDinah Maria Mulock - Looking Death In The face
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AY, in thy face, old fellow! Now`s the time. The Black Sea wind flaps my tent-roof, nor wakes These lads of mine, who take of sleep their fill, As if they thought they`d never sleep again, Instead of-- Pitiless Crimean blast, How many a howling lullaby thou`lt raise To-morrow night, all nights till the world`s end, Over some sleepers here! Some?--who? Dumb Fate Whispers in no man`s ear his coming doom; Each thinks--"not I--not I." But thou, grim Death, I hear thee on the night-wind flying abroad, I feel thee here, squatted at our tent-door, Invisible and incommunicable, Pointing: "Hurrah!" Why yell so in your sleep, Comrade? Did you see aught? Well--let him dream: Who knows, to-morrow such a shout as this He`ll die with. A brave lad, and very like His sister. * * * * * * So! just two hours have I lain Freezing. That pale white star, which came and peered Through the tent-opening, has passed on, to smile Elsewhere, or lost herself i` the dark,--God knows. Two hours nearer to dawn. The very hour, The very hour and day, a year ago, When we light-hearted and light-footed fools Went jingling idle swords in waltz and reel, And smiling in fair faces. How they`d start, Those dainty red ad white soft faces kind, If they could but behold my visage now, Or his--or his--o some poor faces cold We covered up with earth last noon. --There sits The laidly Thing I felt on our tent-door Two hours back. It has sat and never stirred. I cannot challenge it, or shoot it down, Or grapple with it, as with that young Russ Whom I killed yesterday. (What eyes he had!-- Great limpid eyes, and curling dark-red hair,-- A woman`s picture hidden in his breast,-- I never liked this fighting hand to hand.) No, it will not be met like flesh and blood, This shapeless, voiceless, immaterial Thing, Yet I will meet it. Here I sit alone,-- Show me thy face, O Death! There, there. I think I did not tremble. I am a young man; Have done full many an ill deed, left undone Many a good one: lived unto the flesh, Not to the spirit: I would rather live A few years more, and try if things might change. Yet, yet I hope I do not tremble, Death; And that thy finger pointed at my heart But calms the tumult there. What small account The All-living seems to take of this thin flame Which we call life. He sends a moment`s blast Out of war`s nostrils, and a myriad Of these our puny tapers are blown out Forever. Yet we shrink not,--we, such frail Poor knaves, whom a spent ball can instant strike Into eternity,--we helpless fools, Whom a serf`s clumsy hand and clumsier sword Smiting--shall sudden into nothingness Let out that something rare which could conceive A universe and its God. Free, open-eyed, We rush like bridegrooms to Death`s grisly arms: Surely the very longing for that clasp Proves us immortal. Immortality Alone could teach this mortal how to die. Perhaps, war is but Heaven`s great ploughshare, driven Over the barren, fallow earthly fields, Preparing them for harvest; rooting up Grass, weeds, and flowers, which necessary fall, That in these furrows the wise Husbandman May drop celestial seed. So let us die; Yield up our little lives, as the flowers do; Believing He`ll not lose one single soul,-- One germ of His immortal. Naught of His Or Him can perish; therefore let us die. I half remember, something like to this She says in her dear letters. So--let us die. What, dawn? The faint hum in the trenches fails. Is that a bell i` the mist? My faith, they go Early to matins in Sebastopol!-- A gun!--Lads, stand to your arms; the Russ is here. Agnes. Kind Heaven, I have looked Death in the face, Help me to die.
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