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Ada Cambridge - The Kind Word
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Speak kindly, wife; the little ones will grow 
    Fairest and straightest in the warmest sun. 
We talk so often of the seed we sow; 
    But, maybe, when we think our labour done, 
And when we look to gather in the grain, 
We`ll find these stones, we fling about, again 
    Strewing the fruitless sod, 
Having crush`d down and stunted the sweet life 
    That bore the likeness of the life of God. 
All your hard words of bitterness and strife 
    Will lie upon their love, as stones would lie; 
    You think to pick them up, but, by-and-by, 
You`ll find where they have lain 
By the poor, meagre, crooked ears of grain. 
    You will be sorry then. 
Speak kindly, wife; you know not half the wealth 
    Kind words bring in. Ah! I remember when 
I was a little lad, all youth and health, 
    How I went wrong for want of one, and how 
    One saved my live—ay, keeps it steady now. 

My mother died, you know, when I had seen 
    Only a few days` light; they say her face 
Was fair and young—and so it might have been; 
    I cannot tell. But she, who took her place, 
Was coarse and hard, and had a shrewish tongue 
    That fretted all the household into strife. 
Ah, how that sharp voice rung 
    Through ear and heart—through all the peace of life! 
It drove my father from his home at length, 
    And drove him to the ale-house, where he learn`d 
    To drink away the good name he had earn`d, 
And drink away his precious health and strength. 
I can remember well how he would sigh, 
    Would sigh, and turn from his own chimney nook; 
And how, though wintry winds blew fierce and high, 
    He fumbled at the door with hands that shook, 
And pass`d out slowly, as though caring not 
    Whither he went. And she, who tempted him, 
Was first to see the change—to mark the blot 
    That made his manhood`s beauty blurred and dim— 
    But had no mercy and no help for him. 
I think I see her now! 
Standing, with that red flush upon her brow, 
    Hurling her stinging insults thick and fast, 
As he was sadly creeping through the door; 
Until he raised his grizzled head, and swore, 
    And suddenly struck her, growing mad at last. 
Was that the way to better him? Ah, no; 
She taunted him, and stung his spirit so, 
    That what was weakness became sin and crime. 
Wife, did you ever hear 
    What happen`d in that dark and dreadful time? 
One night, when I was wide awake for fear, 
    Straining my baby ears to catch the sound 
Of the fierce voices that were storming near— 
    One night, I heard a cry— 
So sharp! so shrill! a strange and fearful cry— 
    And then a heavy fall upon the ground; 
And then—and then—in the grey morning light 
    I saw her lie, 
With her hard face so strangely still and white, 
    With a broad purple stain upon her brow, 
And dusky shadows on her lips and eyes. 
    Ah me! ah me! I think I see her now, 
Wrapped in that awful death-sleep, as she lies! 
    I well remember how I cried and shook 
    In childish terror, and with what a look 
I turn`d to all the living faces there, 
    Seeking in vain, 
With the first dreary thrill of my despair, 
    The one face that I never saw again! 

I was so young—a little lad, a child— 
    And it was hard, ay, very hard, to be 
So helpless and so ignorant and wild, 
    With not a soul to love and care for me. 
She, when she storm`d about, 
Had roughly used me, and had turn`d me out 
    Into the streets, to gather what I could 
And what I liked of all the evil there; 
    But he, my father, at odd times he would 
    Sit, with his arms flung round me, in his chair, 
And tell me, as he stroked my curly head, 
How he could see the mother that was dead 
    In my blue eyes and in my golden hair. 
And now I was alone—quite, quite alone. 
    Ah, you can never know how I was toss`d 
From place to place; how like a thing of stone, 
Frozen for want of just a kindly tone, 
    My heart became—all its good instincts cross`d! 
And how like some distorted tree I grew, 
Barren of all things beautiful and true. 
    Sullen, and hard, and reckless, I was fit 
And ready, when the devil laid his snare— 
    Quite ready—to rush headlong into it. 
And who was there to care? 
    In a wild night— a well-remember`d night, 
When I was prowling in a darken`d street, 
Trying to hush the echo of my feet, 
    Trying to hide me out of sound and sight— 
Just as I heard the bells begin to call 
    From a church-tower—as I caught a gleam 
Of marble pillars, standing white and tall, 
    And saw the stream 
Of tender, mellow light make, as it were, 
A shining pathway in the misty air, 
    Whither soft footsteps trod 
    Out of the world into the courts of God— 
Just then they found me out— 
    They who had watch`d and follow`d me so long— 
They found me as I idly hung about 
    That stately doorway; and I felt the strong 
Relentless grip upon my arm—I saw 
The quiet, cruel, smiling eyes, and saw 
    That I was bound. 
That night I lay awake upon the ground 
    Of a dark cell. The moonlight quiver`d in, 
Tender, and pure, and sweet, and hover`d round— 
    Trying to cool the raging fire within 
My eyes and heart; like tender mother`s touch, 
    It wander`d over lips, and hands, and hair. 
I think I feel it now—it came with such 
    An unexpected pity to me there! 
It was so dark—and I was all alone. 
    No gentle tone 
To comfort and to keep me from despair! 
    A blessing had been sent—ah, now I know, 
    Just by that little moonbeam; its white glow 
Lay on my heart, till the tears fell like rain. 
The long-endured, sullen sense of pain, 
    So dark and deep, 
Was stirred and touch`d, and almost lighten`d, when 
    I plunged my face into my hands to weep. 
Somehow the boyish spirit came again, 
With just a little of its softness, then; 
    The burning fever cool`d, and I could sleep. 
Ah, I remember, as I lay there, she 
    I never knew came gliding through my dream, 
As through the shadows that encompass`d me 
Glided the tender moonshine; I could see, 
    Dim and yet purely bright—just in the gleam 
That cross`d the prison-floor—a girlish face, 
Divinely beautiful—an angel`s face; 
    And long robes, fair and white, 
    Shadow`d with wings that shone like living light. 
I seem`d to feel, e`en in that gloomy place, 
    The soft, sweet kisses stray 
    Over my feverish forehead as I lay; 
But when I woke, and look`d with glistening eyes 
    Up through the grating, I could only see 
The pale rose-colour dawning in the skies 
    From whence that message had come down to me. 
I was so lonely! Yet more lonely far 
    In the bright day-time, when my sight was bound 
    By cold, hard, scornful faces all around, 
Instead of prison-wall and iron bar. 
More lonely—ay, so much more lonely! They, 
    My judges and accusers, and the crowd 
That witness`d all my misery that day, 
    They knew not that my spirit was as proud, 
As sensitive to suffering, as theirs. 
They knew the sweet hearth-love, that makes the cares 
    And storms of life so light! 
And the great safeguard against sin and crime 
    Stood round about their homes by day and night. 
But I had no one in that bitter time, 
    No one, I thought—no one to stand by me, 
    No one to teach me or to care for me! 
I pass`d through fire as I stood waiting—stood 
    In that great, dreary, dreadful, crowded place; 
    A fire that scorch`d out even the faintest trace 
My tearful dream had left, of good and true. 

Wearily, wearily, I laid me down 
    Within my little prison-cell that night; 
And then I long`d for death to come, and drown 
    The sinful, lonely sorrowful earthly life 
    That always seem`d at strife 
With God and man. I know it was not right— 
    I know it, dear; but it is hard to be 
Shut out from all the pleasant, genial life 
    That makes life worth!—and it was hard for me. 
And so I lay, and fix`d a vacant stare 
    Upon my grated bars, now dimly drawn 
Across a grey-blue thunder-cloud; for there 
    The moonlight came, and there the rosy dawn 
Peep`d in—a kind and friendly face to see; 
One thing, at least of peace and purity. 
And dark thoughts brooded in my heart and brain, 
    Such wicked, reckless thoughts! I wonder`d why 
    I had been born to so much misery, 
    Born to so large a heritage of pain! 
Sure it was wrong, I murmur`d bitterly, 
    Setting my teeth again. 
And then there slowly drifted through my mind— 
    Vaguely and darkly, gaining shape at length— 
A thought whose likeness it were hard to find 
    In any common words. I felt the strength 
Of stern endurance and resolve die out, 
And felt a fierce new strength creep round about 
    My smouldering heart. Eager I turn`d to gaze 
At my new vision—and the warning doubt 
    Died in the passion that was set ablaze. 
What was the vision? Wife, I scarcely dare 
    Paint it again. 
    It`s very memory enfolds such pain! 
A river, dark, and deep, and dreadful, where 
    The moaning eddies swirl`d about the piers 
Of a high bridge; lights twinkling in the air; 
    Unnumber`d voices thrilling in my ears; 
And one—one only—speaking to me there— 
Calling from out the deep, 
Dark water, in its slow, reluctant sweep. . . . . 
An awful space of shadows; then the gleam 
    Of steely ripples, lying far below, 
Like bright snakes coil`d together on the stream;— 
    Ah, wife, you know! you know! 
I saw—but did not see—the grey-blue cloud 
Change into black; the thunder roar`d aloud; 
    And shining arrows glanced across the floor, 
Striking a blaze upon my staring eyes;— 
Darling, these are such painful memories, 
    I cannot tell you more. 
 
But in the day that follow`d—when the sun 
    Was high in heaven, and the crimson flame 
Danced on the bleak white wall above me—one 
    Bearing a sweet and holy message, came. 
He found me lying motionless, alone, 
Passionately quiet, and as hard as stone; 
    And he stepped softly, and bent over me 
    Until I saw his face— 
Fair as an angel`s, with a shining crown 
    Of wavy golden hair—a boyish face, 
But shadow`d with a wondrous dignity. 
    As he bent down, 
His grave eyes looking deeply into mine, 
The dignity seem`d born of the divine. 
Ah me, he was so good! so true! so kind! 
He melted that black shadow on my mind 
    With his sweet, earnest tones; I sat and wept 
Just like a child; and a new life and light 
    Once more, as he sat by me, gently crept 
Into my spirit, that was dark as night. 
He did not talk as if he were above 
    The sins and follies of his fellow-men; 
But all his words were sympathy and love— 
    Or I had never listen`d to them then. 
He did not once reproach me, though he heard— 
Because he would not ask it—every word 
    I had to tell him; but he counselled me, 
    Framing his lips in that humility 
Which seems the stamp of a good man and true. 
    Saying not, "I know this," but "God has said;" 
Saying not, with the solemn warning, "you," 
    But mostly "we;" yet over all he shed 
The high and special dignity he bore. 
One felt he was a priest, as if he wore 
    His surplice—standing in the church, instead 
Of on a prison-floor. 
 
And those kind words—they brought a blessed morn 
    Unto my soul; I never wish`d again 
That I might die; I never felt forlorn, 
    As if my life were given me in vain. 
But I went out into the world, and fought 
    Against its legions, with an arm of strength! 
Wife, though I often falter`d, what he taught 
    Nerved me to courage, and I won at length.
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