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Delmore Schwartz - Baudelaire
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When I fall asleep, and even during sleep, 
I hear, quite distinctly, voices speaking 
Whole phrases, commonplace and trivial, 
Having no relation to my affairs. 


Dear Mother, is any time left to us 
In which to be happy? My debts are immense. 
My bank account is subject to the court’s judgment. 
I know nothing. I cannot know anything. 
I have lost the ability to make an effort. 
But now as before my love for you increases. 
You are always armed to stone me, always: 
It is true. It dates from childhood. 


For the first time in my long life 
I am almost happy. The book, almost finished, 
Almost seems good. It will endure, a monument 
To my obsessions, my hatred, my disgust. 


Debts and inquietude persist and weaken me. 
Satan glides before me, saying sweetly: 
“Rest for a day! You can rest and play today. 
Tonight you will work.” When night comes, 
My mind, terrified by the arrears, 
Bored by sadness, paralyzed by impotence, 
Promises: “Tomorrow: I will tomorrow.” 
Tomorrow the same comedy enacts itself 
With the same resolution, the same weakness. 


I am sick of this life of furnished rooms. 
I am sick of having colds and headaches: 
You know my strange life. Every day brings 
Its quota of wrath. You little know 
A poet’s life, dear Mother: I must write poems, 
The most fatiguing of occupations. 


I am sad this morning. Do not reproach me. 
I write from a café near the post office, 
Amid the click of billiard balls, the clatter of dishes, 
The pounding of my heart. I have been asked to write 
“A History of Caricature.” I have been asked to write 
“A History of Sculpture.” Shall I write a history 
Of the caricatures of the sculptures of you in my heart? 


Although it costs you countless agony, 
Although you cannot believe it necessary, 
And doubt that the sum is accurate, 
Please send me money enough for at least three weeks.
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