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Charlotte Bronte - Mementos
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ARRANGING long-locked drawers and shelves 
  Of cabinets, shut up for years, 
What a strange task we`ve set ourselves ! 
  How still the lonely room appears ! 
How strange this mass of ancient treasures, 
Mementos of past pains and pleasures; 
These volumes, clasped with costly stone, 
With print all faded, gilding gone; 

These fans of leaves, from Indian trees­ 
These crimson shells, from Indian seas­ 
These tiny portraits, set in rings­ 
Once, doubtless, deemed such precious things; 
Keepsakes bestowed by Love on Faith, 
And worn till the receiver`s death, 
Now stored with cameos, china, shells, 
In this old closet`s dusty cells. 

I scarcely think, for ten long years, 
  A hand has touched these relics old; 
And, coating each, slow-formed, appears, 
  The growth of green and antique mould. 

All in this house is mossing over; 
  All is unused, and dim, and damp; 
Nor light, nor warmth, the rooms discover­ 
  Bereft for years of fire and lamp. 

The sun, sometimes in summer, enters 
  The casements, with reviving ray; 
But the long rains of many winters 
  Moulder the very walls away. 

And outside all is ivy, clinging 
  To chimney, lattice, gable grey; 
Scarcely one little red rose springing 
  Through the green moss can force its way. 

Unscared, the daw, and starling nestle, 
  Where the tall turret rises high, 
And winds alone come near to rustle 
  The thick leaves where their cradles lie. 

I sometimes think, when late at even 
  I climb the stair reluctantly, 
Some shape that should be well in heaven, 
  Or ill elsewhere, will pass by me. 

I fear to see the very faces, 
  Familiar thirty years ago, 
Even in the old accustomed places 
  Which look so cold and gloomy now. 

I`ve come, to close the window, hither, 
  At twilight, when the sun was down, 
And Fear, my very soul would wither, 
  Lest something should be dimly shown. 

Too much the buried form resembling, 
  Of her who once was mistress here; 
Lest doubtful shade, or moonbeam trembling, 
  Might take her aspect, once so dear. 

Hers was this chamber; in her time 
  It seemed to me a pleasant room, 
For then no cloud of grief or crime 
  Had cursed it with a settled gloom; 

I had not seen death`s image laid 
In shroud and sheet, on yonder bed. 
  Before she married, she was blest­ 
Blest in her youth, blest in her worth; 
  Her mind was calm, its sunny rest 
Shone in her eyes more clear than mirth. 

And when attired in rich array, 
  Light, lustrous hair about her brow, 
She yonder sat­a kind of day 
  Lit up­what seems so gloomy now. 
These grim oak walls, even then were grim; 
  That old carved chair, was then antique; 
But what around looked dusk and dim 
  Served as a foil to her fresh cheek; 
Her neck, and arms, of hue so fair, 
  Eyes of unclouded, smiling, light; 
Her soft, and curled, and floating hair, 
  Gems and attire, as rainbow bright. 

Reclined in yonder deep recess, 
  Ofttimes she would, at evening, lie 
Watching the sun; she seemed to bless 
  With happy glance the glorious sky. 
She loved such scenes, and as she gazed, 
  Her face evinced her spirit`s mood; 
Beauty or grandeur ever raised 
  In her, a deep-felt gratitude. 

But of all lovely things, she loved 
  A cloudless moon, on summer night; 
Full oft have I impatience proved 
  To see how long, her still delight 
Would find a theme in reverie. 
  Out on the lawn, or where the trees 
Let in the lustre fitfully, 
As their boughs parted momently, 
  To the soft, languid, summer breeze. 
Alas ! that she should e`er have flung 
  Those pure, though lonely joys away­ 
Deceived by false and guileful tongue, 
She gave her hand, then suffered wrong; 
Oppressed, ill-used, she faded young, 
  And died of grief by slow decay. 

Open that casket­look how bright 
Those jewels flash upon the sight; 
The brilliants have not lost a ray 
Of lustre, since her wedding day. 
But see­upon that pearly chain­ 
How dim lies time`s discolouring stain ! 
I`ve seen that by her daughter worn: 
For, e`er she died, a child was born; 
A child that ne`er its mother knew, 
That lone, and almost friendless grew; 
For, ever, when its step drew nigh, 
Averted was the father`s eye; 
And then, a life impure and wild 
Made him a stranger to his child; 
Absorbed in vice, he little cared 
On what she did, or how she fared. 
The love withheld, she never sought, 
She grew uncherished­learnt untaught; 
To her the inward life of thought 
  Full soon was open laid. 
I know not if her friendlessness 
Did sometimes on her spirit press, 
  But plaint she never made. 

The book-shelves were her darling treasure, 
She rarely seemed the time to measure 
  While she could read alone. 
And she too loved the twilight wood, 
And often, in her mother`s mood, 
  Away to yonder hill would hie, 
Like her, to watch the setting sun, 
Or see the stars born, one by one, 
  Out of the darkening sky. 
Nor would she leave that hill till night 
Trembled from pole to pole with light; 
  Even then, upon her homeward way, 
Long­long her wandering steps delayed 
To quit the sombre forest shade, 
  Through which her eerie pathway lay. 

You ask if she had beauty`s grace ? 
I know not­but a nobler face 
  My eyes have seldom seen; 
A keen and fine intelligence, 
And, better still, the truest sense 
  Were in her speaking mien. 
But bloom or lustre was there none, 
Only at moments, fitful shone 
  An ardour in her eye, 
That kindled on her cheek a flush, 
Warm as a red sky`s passing blush 
  And quick with energy. 
Her speech, too, was not common speech, 
No wish to shine, or aim to teach, 
  Was in her words displayed: 
She still began with quiet sense, 
But oft the force of eloquence 
  Came to her lips in aid; 
Language and voice unconscious changed, 
And thoughts, in other words arranged, 
  Her fervid soul transfused 
Into the hearts of those who heard, 
And transient strength and ardour stirred, 
  In minds to strength unused. 
Yet in gay crowd or festal glare, 
Grave and retiring was her air; 
`Twas seldom, save with me alone, 
That fire of feeling freely shone; 
She loved not awe`s nor wonder`s gaze, 
Nor even exaggerated praise, 
Nor even notice, if too keen 
The curious gazer searched her mien. 
Nature`s own green expanse revealed 
  The world, the pleasures, she could prize; 
On free hill-side, in sunny field, 
In quiet spots by woods concealed, 
  Grew wild and fresh her chosen joys, 
Yet Nature`s feelings deeply lay 
  In that endowed and youthful frame; 
Shrined in her heart and hid from day, 
  They burned unseen with silent flame; 
In youth`s first search for mental light, 
  She lived but to reflect and learn, 
But soon her mind`s maturer might 
  For stronger task did pant and yearn; 
And stronger task did fate assign, 
  Task that a giant`s strength might strain; 
To suffer long and ne`er repine, 
  Be calm in frenzy, smile at pain. 

Pale with the secret war of feeling, 
  Sustained with courage, mute, yet high; 
The wounds at which she bled, revealing 
  Only by altered cheek and eye; 

She bore in silence­but when passion 
  Surged in her soul with ceaseless foam, 
The storm at last brought desolation, 
  And drove her exiled from her home. 

And silent still, she straight assembled 
  The wrecks of strength her soul retained; 
For though the wasted body trembled, 
  The unconquered mind, to quail, disdained. 

She crossed the sea­now lone she wanders 
  By Seine`s, or Rhine`s, or Arno`s flow; 
Fain would I know if distance renders 
  Relief or comfort to her woe. 

Fain would I know if, henceforth, ever, 
  These eyes shall read in hers again, 
That light of love which faded never, 
  Though dimmed so long with secret pain. 

She will return, but cold and altered, 
  Like all whose hopes too soon depart; 
Like all on whom have beat, unsheltered, 
  The bitter blasts that blight the heart. 

No more shall I behold her lying 
  Calm on a pillow, smoothed by me; 
No more that spirit, worn with sighing, 
  Will know the rest of infancy. 

If still the paths of lore she follow, 
  `Twill be with tired and goaded will; 
She`ll only toil, the aching hollow, 
  The joyless blank of life to fill. 

And oh ! full oft, quite spent and weary, 
  Her hand will pause, her head decline; 
That labour seems so hard and dreary, 
  On which no ray of hope may shine. 

Thus the pale blight of time and sorrow 
  Will shade with grey her soft, dark hair 
Then comes the day that knows no morrow, 
  And death succeeds to long despair. 

So speaks experience, sage and hoary; 
  I see it plainly, know it well, 
Like one who, having read a story, 
  Each incident therein can tell. 

Touch not that ring, `twas his, the sire 
  Of that forsaken child; 
And nought his relics can inspire 
  Save memories, sin-defiled. 

I, who sat by his wife`s death-bed, 
  I, who his daughter loved, 
Could almost curse the guilty dead, 
  For woes, the guiltless proved. 

And heaven did curse­they found him laid, 
  When crime for wrath was rife, 
Cold­with the suicidal blade 
  Clutched in his desperate gripe. 

`Twas near that long deserted hut, 
  Which in the wood decays, 
Death`s axe, self-wielded, struck his root, 
  And lopped his desperate days. 

You know the spot, where three black trees, 
  Lift up their branches fell, 
And moaning, ceaseless as the seas, 
Still seem, in every passing breeze, 
  The deed of blood to tell. 

They named him mad, and laid his bones 
  Where holier ashes lie; 
Yet doubt not that his spirit groans, 
  In hell`s eternity. 

But, lo ! night, closing o`er the earth, 
  Infects our thoughts with gloom; 
Come, let us strive to rally mirth, 
Where glows a clear and tranquil hearth 
  In some more cheerful room.
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