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                In beauty soft as is the snow                 And powerful as the avalanche,                 She lit the deck. The Heav`n-sent chance!                 She smiled, surprised. They came to see                 The ship, not thinking to meet me.                 At infinite distance she`s my day:                 What then to him? Howbeit they say                 `Tis not so sunny in the sun                 But men might live cool lives thereon!                 All`s well; for I have seen arise                 That reflex sweetness of her eyes                 In his, and watch`d his breath defer                 Humbly its bated life to her,                 His wife. My Love, she`s safe in his                 Devotion! What ask`d I but this?                 They bade adieu; I saw them go                 Across the sea; and now I know                 The ultimate hope I rested on,                 The hope beyond the grave, is gone,                 The hope that, in the heavens high,                 At last it should appear that I                 Loved most, and so, by claim divine,                 Should have her, in the heavens, for mine,                    According to such nuptial sort                 As may subsist in the holy court,                 Where, if there are all kinds of joys                 To exhaust the multitude of choice                 In many mansions, then there are                 Loves personal and particular,                 Conspicuous in the glorious sky                 Of universal charity,                 As Phosphor in the sunrise. Now                 I`ve seen them, I believe their vow                 Immortal; and the dreadful thought,                 That he less honour`d than he ought                 Her sanctity, is laid to rest,                 And, blessing them, I too am blest.                 My goodwill, as a springing air,                 Unclouds a beauty in despair;                 I stand beneath the sky`s pure cope                 Unburthen`d even by a hope;                 And peace unspeakable, a joy                 Which hope would deaden and destroy,                 Like sunshine fills the airy gulf                 Left by the vanishing of self.                 That I have known her; that she moves                 Somewhere all-graceful; that she loves,                 And is belov`d, and that she`s so                 Most happy, and to heaven will go,                 Where I may meet with her, (yet this                 I count but accidental bliss,)                 And that the full, celestial weal                 Of all shall sensitively feel                 The partnership and work of each,                 And thus my love and labour reach                 Her region, there the more to bless                 Her last, consummate happiness,                 Is guerdon up to the degree                 Of that alone true loyalty                    Which, sacrificing, is not nice                 About the terms of sacrifice,                 But offers all, with smiles that say,                 `Tis little, but it is for aye! XI From Mrs. Graham                 You wanted her, my Son, for wife,                 With the fierce need of life in life.                 That nobler passion of an hour                 Was rather prophecy than power;                 And nature, from such stress unbent,                 Recurs to deep discouragement.                 Trust not such peace yet; easy breath,                 In hot diseases, argues death;                 And tastelessness within the mouth                 Worse fever shows than heat or drouth.                 Wherefore take, Frederick, timely fear                 Against a different danger near:                 Wed not one woman, oh, my Child,                 Because another has not smiled!                 Oft, with a disappointed man,                 The first who cares to win him can;                 For, after love`s heroic strain,                 Which tired the heart and brought no gain,                 He feels consoled, relieved, and eased                 To meet with her who can be pleased                 To proffer kindness, and compute                 His acquiescence for pursuit;                 Who troubles not his lonely mood;                 And asks for love mere gratitude.                    Ah, desperate folly! Yet, we know,                 Who wed through love wed mostly so.                 At least, my Son, when wed you do,                 See that the woman equals you,                 Nor rush, from having loved too high,                 Into a worse humility.                 A poor estate`s a foolish plea                 For marrying to a base degree.                 A woman grown cannot be train`d,                 Or, if she could, no love were gain`d;                 For, never was a man`s heart caught                 By graces he himself had taught.                 And fancy not `tis in the might                 Of man to do without delight;                 For, should you in her nothing find                 To exhilarate the higher mind,                 Your soul would deaden useless wings                 With wickedness of lawful things,                 And vampire pleasure swift destroy                 Even the memory of joy.                 So let no man, in desperate mood,                 Wed a dull girl because she`s good.                 All virtues in his wife soon dim,                 Except the power of pleasing him,                 Which may small virtue be, or none!                 I know my just and tender Son,                 To whom the dangerous grace is given                 That scorns a good which is not heaven;                 My Child, who used to sit and sigh                 Under the bright, ideal sky,                 And pass, to spare the farmer`s wheat,                 The poppy and the meadow-sweet!                 He would not let his wife`s heart ache                 For what was mainly his mistake;                 But, having err`d so, all his force                 Would fix upon the hard, right course.                    She`s graceless, say, yet good and true,                 And therefore inly fair, and, through                 The veils which inward beauty fold,                 Faith can her loveliness behold.                 Ah, that`s soon tired; faith falls away                 Without the ceremonial stay                 Of outward loveliness and awe.                 The weightier matters of the law                 She pays: mere mint and cumin not;                 And, in the road that she was taught,                 She treads, and takes for granted still                 Nature`s immedicable ill;                 So never wears within her eyes                 A false report of paradise,                 Nor ever modulates her mirth                 With vain compassion of the earth,                 Which made a certain happier face                 Affecting, and a gayer grace                 With pathos delicately edged!                 Yet, though she be not privileged                 To unlock for you your heart`s delight,                 (Her keys being gold, but not the right,)                 On lower levels she may do!                 Her joy is more in loving you                 Than being loved, and she commands                 All tenderness she understands.                 It is but when you proffer more                 The yoke weighs heavy and chafes sore.                 It`s weary work enforcing love                 On one who has enough thereof,                 And honour on the lowlihead                 Of ignorance! Besides, you dread,                 In Leah`s arms, to meet the eyes                 Of Rachel, somewhere in the skies,                 And both return, alike relieved,                 To life less loftily conceived.                    Alas, alas!                 Then wait the mood                 In which a woman may be woo`d                 Whose thoughts and habits are too high                 For honour to be flattery,                 And who would surely not allow                 The suit that you could proffer now.                 Her equal yoke would sit with ease;                 It might, with wearing, even please,                 (Not with a better word to move                 The loyal wrath of present love);                 She would not mope when you were gay,                 For want of knowing aught to say;                 Nor vex you with unhandsome waste                 Of thoughts ill-timed and words ill-placed;                 Nor reckon small things duties small,                 And your fine sense fantastical;                 Nor would she bring you up a brood                 Of strangers bound to you by blood,                 Boys of a meaner moral race,                 Girls with their mother`s evil grace,                 But not her chance to sometimes find                 Her critic past his judgment kind;                 Nor, unaccustom`d to respect,                 Which men, where `tis not claim`d, neglect,                 Confirm you selfish and morose,                 And slowly, by contagion, gross;                 But, glad and able to receive                 The honour you would long to give,                 Would hasten on to justify                 Expectancy, however high,                 Whilst you would happily incur                 Compulsion to keep up with her. XII From Frederick                 Your letter, Mother, bears the date                 Of six months back, and comes too late.                 My Love, past all conceiving lost,                 A change seem`d good, at any cost,                 From lonely, stupid, silent grief,                 Vain, objectless, beyond relief,                 And, like a sea-fog, settled dense                 On fancy, feeling, thought, and sense.                 I grew so idle, so despised                 Myself, my powers, by Her unprized,                 Honouring my post, but nothing more,                 And lying, when I lived on shore,                 So late of mornings: weak tears stream`d                 For such slight cause,—if only gleam`d,                 Remotely, beautifully bright,                 On clouded eves at sea, the light                 Of English headlands in the sun,—                 That soon I deem`d `twere better done                 To lay this poor, complaining wraith                 Of unreciprocated faith:                 And so, with heart still bleeding quick,                 But strengthen`d by the comfort sick                 Of knowing that She could not care,                 I turn`d away from my despair,                 And told our chaplain`s daughter, Jane,—                 A dear, good girl, who saw my pain,                 And look`d as if she pitied me,—                 How glad and thankful I should be                 If some kind woman, not above                 Myself in rank, would give her love                    To one that knew not how to woo.                 Whereat she, without more ado,                 Blush`d, spoke of love return`d, and closed                 With what she thought I had proposed.                 And, trust me, Mother, I and Jane,                 We suit each other well. My gain                 Is very great in this good Wife,                 To whom I`m bound, for natural life,                 By hearty faith, yet crossing not                 My faith towards—I know not what!                 As to the ether is the air,                 Is her good to Honoria`s fair;                 One place is full of both, yet each                 Lies quite beyond the other`s reach                 And recognition.                 If you say,                 Am I contented? Yea and nay!                 For what`s base but content to grow                 With less good than the best we know?                 But think me not from life withdrawn,                 By passion for a hope that`s gone,                 So far as to forget how much                 A woman is, as merely such,                 To man`s affection. What is best,                 In each, belongs to all the rest;                 And though, in marriage, quite to kiss                 And half to love the custom is,                 `Tis such dishonour, ruin bare,                 The soul`s interior despair,                 And life between two troubles toss`d,                 To me, who think not with the most;                 Whatever `twould have been, before                 My Cousin`s time, `tis now so sore                 A treason to the abiding throne                 Of that sweet love which I have known,                 I cannot live so, and I bend                    My mind perforce to comprehend                 That He who gives command to love                 Does not require a thing above                 The strength He gives. The highest degree                 Of the hardest grace, humility;                 The step t`ward heaven the latest trod,                 And that which makes us most like God,                 And us much more than God behoves,                 Is, to be humble in our loves.                 Henceforth for ever therefore I                 Renounce all partiality                 Of passion. Subject to control                 Of that perspective of the soul                 Which God Himself pronounces good,                 Confirming claims of neighbourhood,                 And giving man, for earthly life,                 The closest neighbour in a wife,                 I`ll serve all. Jane be much more dear                 Than all as she is much more near!                 I`ll love her! Yea, and love`s joy comes                 Ever from self-love`s martyrdoms!                 Yet, not to lie for God, `tis true                 That `twas another joy I knew                 When freighted was my heart with fire                 Of fond, irrational desire                 For fascinating, female charms,                 And hopeless heaven in Her mild arms.                 Nor wrong I any, if I profess                 That care for heaven with me were less                 But that I`m utterly imbued                 With faith of all Earth`s hope renew`d                 In realms where no short-coming pains                 Expectance, and dear love disdains                 Time`s treason, and the gathering dross,                 And lasts for ever in the gloss                 Of newness.                    All the bright past seems,                 Now, but a splendour in my dreams,                 Which shows, albeit the dreamer wakes,                 The standard of right life. Life aches                 To be therewith conform`d; but, oh,                 The world`s so stolid, dark, and low!                 That and the mortal element                 Forbid the beautiful intent,                 And, like the unborn butterfly,                 It feels the wings, and wants the sky.                 But perilous is the lofty mood                 Which cannot yoke with lowly good.                 Right life, for me, is life that wends                 By lowly ways to lofty ends.                 I well perceive, at length, that haste                 T`ward heaven itself is only waste;                 And thus I dread the impatient spur                 Of aught that speaks too plain of Her.                 There`s little here that story tells;                 But music talks of nothing else.                 Therefore, when music breathes, I say,                 (And urge my task,) Away, away!                 Thou art the voice of one I knew,                 But what thou say`st is not yet true;                 Thou art the voice of her I loved,                 And I would not be vainly moved.                 So that which did from death set free                 All things, now dons death`s mockery,                 And takes its place with things that are                 But little noted. Do not mar                 For me your peace! My health is high.                 The proud possession of mine eye                 Departed, I am much like one                 Who had by haughty custom grown                 To think gilt rooms, and spacious grounds,                 Horses, and carriages, and hounds,                    Fine linen, and an eider bed                 As much his need as daily bread,                 And honour of men as much or more.                 Till, strange misfortune smiting sore,                 His pride all goes to pay his debts,                 A lodging anywhere he gets,                 And takes his family thereto                 Weeping, and other relics few,                 Allow`d, by them that seize his pelf,                 As precious only to himself.                 Yet the sun shines; the country green                 Has many riches, poorly seen                 From blazon`d coaches; grace at meat                 Goes well with thrift in what they eat;                 And there`s amends for much bereft                 In better thanks for much that`s left!                 Jane is not fair, yet pleases well                 The eye in which no others dwell;                 And features somewhat plainly set,                 And homely manners leave her yet                 The crowning boon and most express                 Of Heaven`s inventive tenderness,                 A woman. But I do her wrong,                 Letting the world`s eyes guide my tongue!                 She has a handsomeness that pays                 No homage to the hourly gaze,                 And dwells not on the arch`d brow`s height                 And lids which softly lodge the light,                 Nor in the pure field of the cheek                 Flow`rs, though the soul be still to seek;                 But shows as fits that solemn place                 Whereof the window is the face:                 Blankness and leaden outlines mark                 What time the Church within is dark;                 Yet view it on a Festal night,                 Or some occasion else for light,                    And each ungainly line is seen                 A special character to mean                 Of Saint or Prophet, and the whole                 Blank window is a living scroll.                 For hours, the clock upon the shelf,                 Has all the talking to itself;                 But to and fro her needle runs                 Twice, while the clock is ticking once;                 And, when a wife is well in reach,                 Not silence separates, but speech;                 And I, contented, read, or smoke,                 And idly think, or idly stroke                 The winking cat, or watch the fire,                 In social peace that does not tire;                 Until, at easeful end of day,                 She moves, and puts her work away,                 And, saying ‘How cold `tis,’ or ‘How warm,’                 Or something else as little harm,                 Comes, used to finding, kindly press`d,                 A woman`s welcome to my breast,                 With all the great advantage clear                 Of none else having been so near.                 But sometimes, (how shall I deny!)                 There falls, with her thus fondly by,                 Dejection, and a chilling shade.                 Remember`d pleasures, as they fade,                 Salute me, and colossal grow,                 Like foot-prints in the thawing snow.                 I feel oppress`d beyond my force                 With foolish envy and remorse.                 I love this woman, but I might                 Have loved some else with more delight;                 And strange it seems of God that He                 Should make a vain capacity.                 Such times of ignorant relapse,                 `Tis well she does not talk, perhaps.                    The dream, the discontent, the doubt,                 To some injustice flaming out,                 Were`t else, might leave us both to moan                 A kind tradition overthrown,                 And dawning promise once more dead                 In the pernicious lowlihead                 Of not aspiring to be fair.                 And what am I, that I should dare                 Dispute with God, who moulds one clay                 To honour and shame, and wills to pay                 With equal wages them that delve                 About His vines one hour or twelve! XIII From Lady Clitheroe To Mary Churchill                 I`ve dreadful news, my Sister dear!                 Frederick has married, as we hear,                 Oh, such a girl! This fact we get                 From Mr. Barton, whom we met                 At Abury once. He used to know,                 At Race and Hunt, Lord Clitheroe,                 And writes that he ‘has seen Fred Graham,                 ‘Commander of the "Wolf,"—the same                 ‘The Mess call`d Joseph,—with his Wife                 ‘Under his arm.’ He ‘lays his life,                 ‘The fellow married her for love,                 ‘For there was nothing else to move.                 ‘H. is her Shibboleth. `Tis said                 ‘Her Mother was a Kitchen-Maid.’                    Poor Fred! What will Honoria say?                 She thought so highly of him. Pray                 Tell it her gently. I`ve no right,                 I know you hold, to trust my sight;                 But Frederick`s state could not be hid!                 And Felix, coming when he did,                 Was lucky; for Honoria, too,                 Was half in love. How warm she grew                 On ‘worldliness,’ when once I said                 I fancied that, in ladies, Fred                 Had tastes much better than his means!                 His hand was worthy of a Queen`s,                 Said she, and actually shed tears                 The night he left us for two years,                 And sobb`d, when ask`d the cause to tell,                 That ‘Frederick look`d so miserable.’                 He did look very dull, no doubt,                 But such things girls don`t cry about.                 What weathercocks men always prove!                 You`re quite right not to fall in love.                 I never did, and, truth to tell,                 I don`t think it respectable.                 The man can`t understand it, too.                 He likes to be in love with you,                 But scarce knows how, if you love him,                 Poor fellow. When `tis woman`s whim                 To serve her husband night and day,                 The kind soul lets her have her way!                 So, if you wed, as soon you should,                 Be selfish for your husband`s good.                 Happy the men who relegate                 Their pleasures, vanities, and state                 To us. Their nature seems to be                 To enjoy themselves by deputy,                 For, seeking their own benefit,                 Dear, what a mess they make of it!                    A man will work his bones away,                 If but his wife will only play;                 He does not mind how much he`s teased,                 So that his plague looks always pleased;                 And never thanks her, while he lives,                 For anything, but what he gives!                 `Tis hard to manage men, we hear!                 Believe me, nothing`s easier, Dear.                 The most important step by far                 Is finding what their colours are.                 The next is, not to let them know                 The reason why they love us so.                 The indolent droop of a blue shawl,                 Or gray silk`s fluctuating fall,                 Covers the multitude of sins                 In me. Your husband, Love, might wince                 At azure, and be wild at slate,                 And yet do well with chocolate.                 Of course you`d let him fancy he                 Adored you for your piety. XIV From Jane To Her Mother                 Dear Mother, as you write, I see                 How glad and thankful I should be                 For such a husband. Yet to tell                 The truth, I am so miserable!                 How could he—I remember, though,                 He never said he loved me! No,                 He is so right that all seems wrong                 I`ve done and thought my whole life long!                    I`m grown so dull and dead with fear                 That Yes and No, when he is near,                 Is all I have to say. He`s quite                 Unlike what most would call polite,                 And yet, when first I saw him come                 To tea in Aunt`s fine drawing-room,                 He made me feel so common! Oh,                 How dreadful if he thinks me so!                 It`s no use trying to behave                 To him. His eye, so kind and grave,                 Sees through and through me! Could not you,                 Without his knowing that I knew,                 Ask him to scold me now and then?                 Mother, it`s such a weary strain                 The way he has of treating me                 As if `twas something fine to be                 A woman; and appearing not                 To notice any faults I`ve got!                 I know he knows I`m plain, and small,                 Stupid, and ignorant, and all                 Awkward and mean; and, by degrees,                 I see a beauty which he sees,                 When often he looks strange awhile,                 Then recollects me with a smile.                 I wish he had that fancied Wife,                 With me for Maid, now! all my life                 To dress her out for him, and make                 Her looks the lovelier for his sake;                 To have her rate me till I cried;                 Then see her seated by his side,                 And driven off proudly to the Ball;                 Then to stay up for her, whilst all                 The servants were asleep; and hear                 At dawn the carriage rolling near,                 And let them in; and hear her laugh,                 And boast, he said that none was half                    So beautiful, and that the Queen,                 Who danced with him the first, had seen                 And noticed her, and ask`d who was                 That lady in the golden gauze?                 And then to go to bed, and lie                 In a sort of heavenly jealousy,                 Until `twas broad day, and I guess`d                 She slept, nor knew how she was bless`d.                 Pray burn this letter. I would not                 Complain, but for the fear I`ve got                 Of going wild, as we hear tell                 Of people shut up in a cell,                 With no one there to talk to. He                 Must never know he is loved by me                 The most; he`d think himself to blame;                 And I should almost die for shame.                 If being good would serve instead                 Of being graceful, ah, then, Fred—                 But I, myself, I never could                 See what`s in women`s being good;                 For all their goodness is to do                 Just what their nature tells them to.                 Now, when a man would do what`s right,                 He has to try with all his might.                 Though true and kind in deed and word,                 Fred`s not a vessel of the Lord.                 But I have hopes of him; for, oh,                 How can we ever surely know                 But that the very darkest place                 May be the scene of saving grace! XV From Frederick                 ‘How did I feel?’ The little wight                 Fill`d me, unfatherly, with fright!                 So grim it gazed, and, out of the sky,                 There came, minute, remote, the cry,                 Piercing, of original pain.                 I put the wonder back to Jane,                 And her delight seem`d dash`d, that I,                 Of strangers still by nature shy,                 Was not familiar quite so soon                 With her small friend of many a moon.                 But, when the new-made Mother smiled,                 She seem`d herself a little child,                 Dwelling at large beyond the law                 By which, till then, I judged and saw;                 And that fond glow which she felt stir                 For it, suffused my heart for her;                 To whom, from the weak babe, and thence                 To me, an influent innocence,                 Happy, reparative of life,                 Came, and she was indeed my wife,                 As there, lovely with love she lay,                 Brightly contented all the day                 To hug her sleepy little boy,                 In the reciprocated joy                 Of touch, the childish sense of love,                 Ever inquisitive to prove                 Its strange possession, and to know                 If the eye`s report be really so. XVI From Jane To Mrs. Graham                 Dear Mother,—such if you`ll allow,                 In love, not law, I`ll call you now,—                 I hope you`re well. I write to say                 Frederick has got, besides his pay,                 A good appointment in the Docks;                 Also to thank you for the frocks                 And shoes for Baby. I, (D.V.,)                 Shall soon be strong. Fred goes to sea                 No more. I am so glad; because,                 Though kinder husband never was,                 He seems still kinder to become                 The more he stays with me at home.                 When we are parted, I see plain                 He`s dull till he gets used again                 To marriage. Do not tell him, though;                 I would not have him know I know,                 For all the world.                 I try to mind                 All your advice; but sometimes find                 I do not well see how. I thought                 To take it about dress; so bought                 A gay new bonnet, gown, and shawl;                 But Frederick was not pleased at all;                 For, though he smiled, and said, ‘How smart!’                 I feel, you know, what`s in his heart.                 But I shall learn! I fancied long                 That care in dress was very wrong,                 Till Frederick, in his startling way,                 When I began to blame, one day,                 The Admiral`s Wife, because we hear                 She spends two hours, or something near,                    In dressing, took her part, and said                 How all things deck themselves that wed;                 How birds and plants grow fine to please                 Each other in their marriages;                 And how (which certainly is true—                 It never struck me—did it you?)                 Dress was, at first, Heaven`s ordinance,                 And has much Scripture countenance.                 For Eliezer, we are told,                 Adorn`d with jewels and with gold                 Rebecca. In the Psalms, again,                 How the King`s Daughter dress`d! And, then,                 The Good Wife in the Proverbs, she                 Made herself clothes of tapestry,                 Purple and silk: and there`s much more                 I had not thought about before!                 But Fred`s so clever! Do you know,                 Since Baby came, he loves me so!                 I`m really useful, now, to Fred;                 And none could do so well instead.                 It`s nice to fancy, if I died,                 He`d miss me from the Darling`s side!                 Also, there`s something now, you see,                 On which we talk, and quite agree;                 On which, without pride too, I can                 Hope I`m as wise as any man.                 I should be happy now, if quite                 Sure that in one thing Fred was right.                 But, though I trust his prayers are said,                 Because he goes so late to bed,                 I doubt his Calling. Glad to find                 A text adapted to his mind,—                 That where St. Paul, in Man and Wife,                 Allows a little worldly life,—                 He smiled, and said that he knew all                 Such things as that without St. Paul!                    And once he said, when I with pain                 Had got him just to read Romaine,                 ‘Men`s creeds should not their hopes condemn.                 ‘Who wait for heaven to come to them                 ‘Are little like to go to heaven,                 ‘If logic`s not the devil`s leaven!’                 I cried at such a wicked joke,                 And he, surprised, went out to smoke.                 But to judge him is not for me,                 Who myself sin so dreadfully                 As half to doubt if I should care                 To go to heaven, and he not there.                 He must be right; and I dare say                 I shall soon understand his way.                 To other things, once strange, I`ve grown                 Accustom`d, nay, to like. I own                 `Twas long before I got well used                 To sit, while Frederick read or mused                 For hours, and scarcely spoke. When he                 For all that, held the door to me,                 Pick`d up my handkerchief, and rose                 To set my chair, with other shows                 Of honour, such as men, `tis true,                 To sweethearts and fine ladies do,                 It almost seem`d an unkind jest;                 But now I like these ways the best.                 They somehow make me gentle and good;                 And I don`t mind his quiet mood.                 If Frederick does seem dull awhile,                 There`s Baby. You should see him smile!                 I`m pretty and nice to him, sweet Pet,                 And he will learn no better yet:                 Indeed, now little Johnny makes                 A busier time of it, and takes                 Our thoughts off one another more,                 I`m happy as need be, I`m sure! XVII From Felix To Honoria                 Let me, Beloved, while gratitude                 Is garrulous with coming good,                 Or ere the tongue of happiness                 Be silenced by your soft caress,                 Relate how, musing here of you,                 The clouds, the intermediate blue,                 The air that rings with larks, the grave                 And distant rumour of the wave,                 The solitary sailing skiff,                 The gusty corn-field on the cliff,                 The corn-flower by the crumbling ledge,                 Or, far-down at the shingle`s edge,                 The sighing sea`s recurrent crest                 Breaking, resign`d to its unrest,                 All whisper, to my home-sick thought,                 Of charms in you till now uncaught,                 Or only caught as dreams, to die                 Ere they were own`d by memory.                 High and ingenious Decree                 Of joy-devising Deity!                 You whose ambition only is                 The assurance that you make my bliss,                 (Hence my first debt of love to show,                 That you, past showing, indeed do so!)                 Trust me, the world, the firmament,                 With diverse-natured worlds besprent,                 Were rear`d in no mere undivine                 Boast of omnipotent design,                 The lion differing from the snake                 But for the trick of difference sake,                    And comets darting to and fro                 Because in circles planets go;                 But rather that sole love might be                 Refresh`d throughout eternity                 In one sweet faith, for ever strange,                 Mirror`d by circumstantial change.                 For, more and more, do I perceive                 That everything is relative                 To you, and that there`s not a star,                 Nor nothing in`t, so strange or far,                 But, if `twere scanned, `twould chiefly mean                 Somewhat, till then, in you unseen,                 Something to make the bondage strait                 Of you and me more intimate,                 Some unguess`d opportunity                 Of nuptials in a new degree.                 But, oh, with what a novel force                 Your best-conn`d beauties, by remorse                 Of absence, touch; and, in my heart,                 How bleeds afresh the youthful smart                 Of passion fond, despairing still                 To utter infinite good-will                 By worthy service! Yet I know                 That love is all that love can owe,                 And this to offer is no less                 Of worth, in kind speech or caress,                 Than if my life-blood I should give.                 For good is God`s prerogative,                 And Love`s deed is but to prepare                 The flatter`d, dear Belov`d to dare                 Acceptance of His gifts. When first                 On me your happy beauty burst,                 Honoria, verily it seem`d                 That naught beyond you could be dream`d                 Of beauty and of heaven`s delight.                 Zeal of an unknown infinite                    Yet bade me ever wish you more                 Beatified than e`er before.                 Angelical were your replies                 To my prophetic flatteries;                 And sweet was the compulsion strong                 That drew me in the course along                 Of heaven`s increasing bright allure,                 With provocations fresh of your                 Victorious capacity.                 Whither may love, so fledged, not fly?                 Did not mere Earth hold fast the string                 Of this celestial soaring thing,                 So measure and make sensitive,                 And still, to the nerves, nice notice give                 Of each minutest increment                 Of such interminable ascent,                 The heart would lose all count, and beat                 Unconscious of a height so sweet,                 And the spirit-pursuing senses strain                 Their steps on the starry track in vain!                 But, reading now the note just come,                 With news of you, the babes, and home,                 I think, and say, ‘To-morrow eve                 ‘With kisses me will she receive;’                 And, thinking, for extreme delight                 Of love`s extremes, I laugh outright. XVIII From Frederick                 Eight wedding-days gone by, and none                 Yet kept, to keep them all in one,                 Jane and myself, with John and Grace                 On donkeys, visited the place                 I first drew breath in, Knatchley Wood.                 Bearing the basket, stuff`d with food,                 Milk, loaves, hard eggs, and marmalade,                 I halted where the wandering glade                 Divides the thicket. There I knew,                 It seem`d, the very drops of dew                 Below the unalter`d eglantine.                 Nothing had changed since I was nine!                 In the green desert, down to eat                 We sat, our rustic grace at meat                 Good appetite, through that long climb                 Hungry two hours before the time.                 And there Jane took her stitching out,                 And John for birds`-nests pry`d about,                 And Grace and Baby, in between                 The warm blades of the breathing green,                 Dodged grasshoppers; and I no less,                 In conscientious idleness,                 Enjoy`d myself, under the noon                 Stretch`d, and the sounds and sights of June                 Receiving, with a drowsy charm,                 Through muffled ear and folded arm.                 And then, as if I sweetly dream`d,                 I half-remember`d how it seem`d                 When I, too, was a little child                 About the wild wood roving wild.                    Pure breezes from the far-off height                 Melted the blindness from my sight,                 Until, with rapture, grief, and awe,                 I saw again as then I saw.                 As then I saw, I saw again                 The harvest-waggon in the lane,                 With high-hung tokens of its pride                 Left in the elms on either side;                 The daisies coming out at dawn                 In constellations on the lawn;                 The glory of the daffodil;                 The three black windmills on the hill,                 Whose magic arms, flung wildly by,                 Sent magic shadows o`er the rye.                 Within the leafy coppice, lo,                 More wealth than miser`s dreams could show,                 The blackbird`s warm and woolly brood,                 Five golden beaks agape for food;                 The Gipsies, all the summer seen                 Native as poppies to the Green;                 The winter, with its frosts and thaws                 And opulence of hips and haws;                 The lovely marvel of the snow;                 The Tamar, with its altering show                 Of gay ships sailing up and down,                 Among the fields and by the Town;                 And, dearer far than anything,                 Came back the songs you used to sing.                 (Ah, might you sing such songs again,                 And I, your Child, but hear as then,                 With conscious profit of the gulf                 Flown over from my present self!)                 And, as to men`s retreating eyes,                 Beyond high mountains higher rise,                 Still farther back there shone to me                 The dazzling dusk of infancy.                    Thither I look`d, as, sick of night,                 The Alpine shepherd looks to the height,                 And does not see the day, `tis true,                 But sees the rosy tops that do.                 Meantime Jane stitch`d, and fann`d the flies                 From my repose, with hush`d replies                 To Grace, and smiles when Baby fell.                 Her countenance love visible                 Appear`d, love audible her voice.                 Why in the past alone rejoice,                 Whilst here was wealth before me cast                 Which, I could feel, if `twere but past                 Were then most precious? Question vain,                 When ask`d again and yet again,                 Year after year; yet now, for no                 Cause, but that heaven`s bright winds will blow                 Not at our pray`r but as they list,                 It brought that distant, golden mist                 To grace the hour, firing the deep                 Of spirit and the drowsy keep                 Of joy, till, spreading uncontain`d,                 The holy power of seeing gain`d                 The outward eye, this owning even                 That where there`s love and truth there`s heaven.                 Debtor to few, forgotten hours                 Am I, that truths for me are powers.                 Ah, happy hours, `tis something yet                 Not to forget that I forget!                 And now a cloud, bright, huge and calm,                 Rose, doubtful if for bale or balm;                 O`ertoppling towers and bulwarks bright                 Appear`d, at beck of viewless might,                 Along a rifted mountain range.                 Untraceable and swift in change,                 Those glittering peaks, disrupted, spread                 To solemn bulks, seen overhead;                    The sunshine quench`d, from one dark form                 Fumed the appalling light of storm.                 Straight to the zenith, black with bale,                 The Gipsies` smoke rose deadly pale;                 And one wide night of hopeless hue                 Hid from the heart the recent blue.                 And soon, with thunder crackling loud,                 A flash reveal`d the formless cloud:                 Lone sailing rack, far wavering rim,                 And billowy tracks of stormland dim.                 We stood, safe group`d beneath a shed.                 Grace hid behind Jane`s gown for dread,                 Who told her, fondling with her hair,                 ‘The naughty noise! but God took care                 ‘Of all good girls.’ John seem`d to me                 Too much for Jane`s theology,                 Who bade him watch the tempest. Now                 A blast made all the woodland bow;                 Against the whirl of leaves and dust                 Kine dropp`d their heads; the tortured gust                 Jagg`d and convuls`d the ascending smoke                 To mockery of the lightning`s stroke.                 The blood prick`d, and a blinding flash                 And close coinstantaneous crash                 Humbled the soul, and the rain all round                 Resilient dimm`d the whistling ground,                 Nor flagg`d in force from first to last,                 Till, sudden as it came, `twas past,                 Leaving a trouble in the copse                 Of brawling birds and tinkling drops.                 Change beyond hope! Far thunder faint                 Mutter`d its vast and vain complaint,                 And gaps and fractures, fringed with light,                 Show`d the sweet skies, with squadrons bright                 Of cloudlets, glittering calm and fair                 Through gulfs of calm and glittering air.                    With this adventure, we return`d.                 The roads the feet no longer burn`d.                 A wholesome smell of rainy earth                 Refresh`d our spirits, tired of mirth.                 The donkey-boy drew friendly near
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